Well.

A day later and I'm tired and now bored. I'm barely called by anyone anymore. It kinda sucks I guess, considering a lot of my time consists of being on a computer and not talking too much in my house. I'd love to hear the phone ring RIGHT now and have it be for me.

Yeah. That would be cool.

10:40PM, I'm up watching Showcase. American History X is on, and I'm making a point to watch it. People say to me how it's an amazing film, and I want to see if their claims are true. I hope so. So far the movie is... different from anything I've seen. I can't put it in words, but it's... I don't know. While talking to Jess, I realized why I'm watching it. I said: "It's kind of hard to watch when you realize it's things like this that happen in the world, and it's hard to see, yet interesting because it's such a taboo and foreign topic."

"Closer"

you let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god
you can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason I stay alive

I'm going iInhsaatneeyou
If you have half an idea of who I am or have talked to me, you'll have a vague idea of why I'm going mad.

First day of school today, wasn't so bad. My old homeroom got split up and spread across the school, so I'm with a new group. Yeah, that's pretty cool. I got my schedule, and everything looks right. First classes tomorrow.
-Computer Graphics Arts
-Modern Social Issues (pretty much Moral Ed.)
-English
-Math

Hope everything turns out okay. And I hope I remember my math stuff. My skills and whatnot.