Sleep's escaped me once again. I'm sorta mulling around, avoiding sleep like I always do. That's right, avoiding. A friend of mine made me realize that whenever I'm not sleeping normally, it's only because I'm making myself NOT sleep. Like I'm being rebellious or something. She was probably right. I do have a lot of nights where I just don't sleep, even when I try to. The nerd of me drove me to look it up on Wikipedia, the probable causes of insomnia.

Removing probable causes of insomnia

• Sometimes lack of sleep is indicative of an emotional problem that's not being dealt with. If a person is not happy with their lifestyle, or they are putting off problems that should be dealt with, it can often result in sleeping trouble. Just as the human body has nutritional requirements, all people have social and environmental requirements. Sometimes more social activities can help.

I wonder about this one. I spent my day today talking to Sruti about the past 5 years, and man, it was like a ... wake up a call, in a way. To all the different sides of me that I never let out.

• If an alarm has been set, avoid looking at the clock during the night and cover the display if necessary. This prevents mental calculations of how much sleep has been lost so far and how little sleep can be obtained before the alarm will sound. Accepting that the amount of sleep obtained can only be determined upon waking, not while waiting to get to sleep, may also be beneficial.

This one is accurate. I found I was able to concentrate on sleep better when I hid the screen of my alarm clock. The light is fucking GREEN for Christ's sake.

It could also just be because I spend my nights in front of a computer doing essays and stuff.

But anyways...

Every time I write something, and I'm tired or drowsy, I start scribbling like a maniac. My writing gets worse than it already is, which is an amazing feat. Anyways, what's funny is how you can tell how many times I fall asleep on the page. There's always this point where my handwriting gets smaller and illegible, and then there's a streak across the page where my body stops and I just sleep.

What's even worse is when I fall asleep for a long time, and drool on the page. That's pretty fucking nasty. And even worse, it's harder to figure out what's written afterwards.

Well, I'm gonna try sleeping.