Hey. Won't do the crush list thing I said I would. Maybe later. I'm in computer class again, it's... what, 8:45 AM. I'm thinking about Radiohead right now. Their new album is coming out in 5 or 6 days, and I plan on picking it up. I really like Radiohead. I'm not sure what it is about them that I like, but I enjoy their mellow tunes and stuff. I still think that pre kid-A was better than their newer stuff, but still, I can't say that their music is bad. And god dammit, why are people reading my screen. Nosy bastards, get away! Jeez. I'll rock on till the breakabreaka dawn, cause you know that's how I am.
Recently, someone said I was stubborn. I was tempted to say "Tell me something I don't know," but I didn't. Didn't want to be a jerk. I do admit, I can be stubborn. Really stubborn. It's really just a part of my nature. I tend to have a short-fuse at times, really.... short. I can control my temper easily, but I still get... Angry....

Anyways, I'm out of here.

I'm at my cousin's house for the 4 year anniversary of my grandfather's death. There's a lot of food and all, but my cousin's out, and it's pretty boring. It's not that I don't know the people here, I know everyone that's showed up. It's just that... I feel alienated, like a third wheel. The only person in my sort of... age group is my cousin, and she's not here. Ah well. I'm pretty much just spending my time listening to CDs that I brought along (Weezer blue, White Stripes - Elephant, Matthew Good - Avalanche, etc.) and thinking about what I should do for the end of the year. I want to write a post here that tells all, all my crushes this year, things I did that I regret/don't regret, stuff I want to remember, blah blah blah. Lots of stuff. I feel like getting that off my chest... and then hearing what people have to say about it.
I need to research and write a french presentation that's due Monday. I have to completely memorize it and everything. The teacher needed to know my topic, and I couldn't think of anything good, so I looked at the premade topic list and chose to talk about a popular person. Or in this case, popular people, Weezer. They're just so rad. I have to make sure I do a good job on this, it's 55% of the exam mark.
I quote my teacher, "If you miss this, if you're absent or sick without a doctor's note, then you get an automatic zero and fail the exam."
That's the sort of thing that gets me nervous. I have a good feeling about this though, I'm sure I'll pass it.

I removed the essay, it was making things screwed, with it's horizontal scrolling and all. I'll post it up online or somewhere so you can still go and read it. :)

Two weeks left till school's over. It's kind of a scary thought, with exams in three weeks, and the doubled amount of work I've gotten lately. I'm really pushing myself right now, and the strain and stress seems to be building. I think I'll pull through though. I still have to write an essay about the assassination of JFK, which is much deeper than I thought it would be. Deeper, in the sense that there's a lot of stuff to sift through before finding what I need, not the philosophical sense. Also, it's not the easiest thing to research. I've seen pictures of the shooting, and stills of the moment he was shot. The sight of it was disturbing. It scared me. It's not like in the movies, like "Hard-Boiled", (one of John Woo's finest), which has a bodycount of 230. In the movies, people are shot all the time, but I know that it's makeup and SFX, but with JFK, I'm seeing someone who lived, who was known, in his last moments of life. I'm starting to wonder whether I should change my essay topic, although now is a little too late.
I have a 2 minute presentation to do for french class that has to be memorized. 2 minutes may not seem like much... but when you're up in front of a class trying to remember what you need to.... it's like an eternity. I don't like presentations. They get me a little... scared. I'm nervous beforehand, scared I'll choke and forget what I need to know. But still, like I said, I think I'll pull through. It's not that bad. I've done longer presentations before. Just not in french.
I also have a math assignment to polish off. It's a nice bunch of work that's preparing me for the finals, and I'm going through it pretty good. My class is behind in terms of the work though. We have two weeks to review everything covered so far, and time is really running short.
Science is one of those subjects, for me, which I have a bad feeling about. Although my average is pretty high (90-something), the exam seems like a monolith, tall and foreboding. My teacher keeps telling us about it, how it's all multiple choice, and how multiple choice is harder. How? Because when you read through the 4 answers given, three might sound logical and reasonable, and one might be worthless. I'd end up getting confused and then take a lucky guess. I'll need to put in some extra effort in that, re-reading my notes, reviewing what I need to.
I have to also get myself another little black notebook, just like the other, because that one has no pages left to write in. It's lasted me the whole year, and it's about time that it was retired. I just hope I don't start some sort of fad, carrying a little book around to scribble or draw in when people don't care about what goes on.
It's almost 11:30, I need to get some shuteye. That'll be hard to do, considering I'm not tired at all, and I'll probably be up past midnight. If I don't get to sleep, I'll probably be making up for lost time in school. That's not so good...

Hey hey, just finishing off an essay at 7AM.